Fri, Nov. 25th, 2005, 02:52 am
Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. No one has to spend an assload of money and I get to spend time with my family which is one of the most important things in life. I told my parents that Gary and I are going to DEP into the Marines in early 2008. They support me whole-heartedly. I am greatful.
I am thankful today. I guess we're supposed to be. But I see that I have immense love from my family, and that is something that many people do not always have.
I am excited about the prospect of leaving Athens and going somewhere strange to me. Namely Camp Lejune, South Carolina. I'm counting down the days. I need to call my grandfather to tell him that I'm joining the Marines. He was a marine during world war II. He invaded three major islands and is very proud of being a Marine. I'm interested to see what his reaction will be. I hope he is alive when I graduate from basic. I'd like him to see that. Or at least know that I did.
I miss living in Oglethorpe sometimes, because it's so much more quiet out there. I sat on the porch earlier today and just listened to nothing which was kind of nice. I think it's good to appreciate the smaller things sometimes.
Every time I make an entry in LJ, I just think about how pointless blogging is. This is just a way to link yourself to friends you don't really know any more so that time to time you can invade on their lives. But I guess because it's a reciprical thing, it's not really invasion. More of a mutual masturbation of angst and retarded nothings.
More Counter-Strike is in order for now.
Tue, Nov. 1st, 2005, 01:07 am
Everything is constantly changing. I am changing as is the world around me. I have a lot of love in my heart. Which is really nice for once.
Fri, Oct. 28th, 2005, 12:48 am
Change of plans: Last call THEN KRUSH GIRLS.
Come get your dance on: meet me at 9:30 at my place. 706-207-4935
Thu, Oct. 27th, 2005, 01:21 am
I feel really alone right now. More so than I think I have ever before. I keep thinking of the little things.
I hate this.
Tue, Oct. 25th, 2005, 12:47 am
If anyone's going to be around this weekend I'll be at Last Call on Saturday night with a couple folks. Give me a heads up if you wanna come.
Mon, Oct. 24th, 2005, 11:40 pm
"The book of love is long and boring. No one can lift the damn thing. It's full of charts and facts and figures and instructions for dancing. But I love it when you read to me, and you can read me anything. The book of love has music in it. In fact, that's where music comes from. Some of it is just transcendental. Some of it is just really dumb. But I love it when you sing to me, and you can sing me anything. The book of love is long and boring and written very long ago. It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes and things we're all to young to know. But I love it when you give me things, and you ought to give me wedding rings."
- "The Book of Love" - Magnetic Fields
by Stephin Merrit
Sun, Oct. 23rd, 2005, 11:03 pm
I watched the sky burning in my dreams last night. I sat on a hill and watched the clouds turn to fire. At the time it was frightening. Looking back I can't think of anything more beautiful. Sometimes I'm reminded of how little things mean.
Mon, Oct. 17th, 2005, 10:13 pm
Hah. I forgot what being single is like.
I've been doing a lot of music listening. Just chilling out in my room. Revisting other points in my life that seem a lot more fun when I replay them in my head. I remember the haunted theatre. That was one of the best times of my life. Jas and Tory were so new to me then. I regret not knowing you more.
I wonder when I'm out dying in some desert will I think back through my life and find it to be a good one. I'll remember my mother's face and my fathers strong eyes. I'll remember all of the people I've loved and hope for their happiness. I'll think back to just sitting around in high school and remember lossing that last bit of innocence and purity that my friends and I had. Just knowing that those were the best moments that I would have. And over all, remember those starry nights back in Oglethorpe when I'd lay out by myself and just be overwhelmed by how insignificant our actions and thoughts are.
I am ready to go to war. I want that so badly right now. Not in the sense that I want to kill people. Nothing like that. But I just want to know that I had partaken in a brotherhood and I fought with guys who are family. Not by blood but by bond. I don't understand what the hell is wrong with my head. No one in their right mind wants to go to war.
I hope to God my spine heals. I need this.
By the way. If anyone responds to this in some condescending way: You're a fucking dick.
Sat, Oct. 15th, 2005, 03:36 am
Gary and I are thinking:
Marine Corps in a year. Hoorah.
Mon, Oct. 10th, 2005, 02:08 am
Kara shaved my head today. I like it a lot.